what to do.......

I just want to run away, far away! Away from everbody who hurt me.

My family just uqh, they dont understand me nd never will, im tired of trying to get them to understand.

OVERPROTECTIVE,NOSEY,- JUST LET ME LIVE MY LIFE!

let me learn from my own mistakes, damn I just want to run away and never come back. As I type this im almost in tears, my life is it worth living? Nothing ever goes right. Never experienced happiness, just P.A.I.N - no one can feel my pain, what i've gone through. The people who say they love me cause me the most pain, IM TIRED! IM TIRED! IM TIRED!

i dont know what to do, sometimes i want to pull the trigger & let this life of mine be over........

- crying -

not

I care for you ALOT, more than you think I do I want to be with you, trust me I do its just..................sometimes i'd rather follow my mind than my heart, because my mind is saying he's gonna hurt you but my heart is saying lOVE AGAIN i'd rather listen to my mind. Im not mentally/physically ready for another heart break. No one ever is, who wants to be hurt more than once by the person they loved NOBODY! so why risk that chance again until im sure about you. Which im not "actions speak louder than words" right? Well all I hear is words, which mean nothing to me.

I wish you would understand that just saying "baby i love you" doesnt mean anything, anybody can say those words & not mean it.


* I'm not ready to love, I hope you understand. Im sorry I cant, but I cant get hurt again.

beauty & needed

have you ever been in a room full of people & feel like eyes were on you, but not in a good way.


* thats how I feel most of the time, i always feel that nobody can love me, or that noone understands me. sometimes i wish i could run away and start my life over. MAKE A CHANGE.

people say beauty is in the inside not the out, but i want that outside beauty to. IM TIRED of my confidence getting in my way, I want someone to make me feel beautiful inside & out. I just want to feel needed. Im tired of looking around and thinking "wow she's beautiful", or "she's pretty" I want to hold my head up high & say im beautiful. BUT WHAT DOES IT TAKE?

where is the guy that wants to love me ? nd make me feel beautiful, OH WAIT! your here, but i dont think you love me, actions speak louder than words & ure words mean nothing until i see it.









Alexus