what to do.......

I just want to run away, far away! Away from everbody who hurt me.

My family just uqh, they dont understand me nd never will, im tired of trying to get them to understand.

OVERPROTECTIVE,NOSEY,- JUST LET ME LIVE MY LIFE!

let me learn from my own mistakes, damn I just want to run away and never come back. As I type this im almost in tears, my life is it worth living? Nothing ever goes right. Never experienced happiness, just P.A.I.N - no one can feel my pain, what i've gone through. The people who say they love me cause me the most pain, IM TIRED! IM TIRED! IM TIRED!

i dont know what to do, sometimes i want to pull the trigger & let this life of mine be over........

- crying -

not

I care for you ALOT, more than you think I do I want to be with you, trust me I do its just..................sometimes i'd rather follow my mind than my heart, because my mind is saying he's gonna hurt you but my heart is saying lOVE AGAIN i'd rather listen to my mind. Im not mentally/physically ready for another heart break. No one ever is, who wants to be hurt more than once by the person they loved NOBODY! so why risk that chance again until im sure about you. Which im not "actions speak louder than words" right? Well all I hear is words, which mean nothing to me.

I wish you would understand that just saying "baby i love you" doesnt mean anything, anybody can say those words & not mean it.


* I'm not ready to love, I hope you understand. Im sorry I cant, but I cant get hurt again.

beauty & needed

have you ever been in a room full of people & feel like eyes were on you, but not in a good way.


* thats how I feel most of the time, i always feel that nobody can love me, or that noone understands me. sometimes i wish i could run away and start my life over. MAKE A CHANGE.

people say beauty is in the inside not the out, but i want that outside beauty to. IM TIRED of my confidence getting in my way, I want someone to make me feel beautiful inside & out. I just want to feel needed. Im tired of looking around and thinking "wow she's beautiful", or "she's pretty" I want to hold my head up high & say im beautiful. BUT WHAT DOES IT TAKE?

where is the guy that wants to love me ? nd make me feel beautiful, OH WAIT! your here, but i dont think you love me, actions speak louder than words & ure words mean nothing until i see it.









Alexus

havent '

so im making a new bloq - this one is jus qne be about my daily life and all that ish ;
my second one is qne b music and all that other ish!

I CANT

i cant believe you said that to me last night! I think thats the worst thing somebody has said to me but its okay IM DONE! If you say you dont give a fuck about me and fuck me thats how I feel about you , its not worth it! REALLY! I cried - and i have never cried over any dude BUT YOU WERE THE ONE who made me cry this time - you said it was the other niggas that made me cry, WHAT OTHER NIGGAS?!? - i dont kno who you are talking about, but i guess that me and you werent meant to be. because im not going keep running back to you! You say your sorry and i do believe you, but this time sorry isnt going to work...i need space from you i gueesx..its okay though -

YOU & ME

you say you want mee but do you really mean it? im having second thoughts about you. is it because other dudes have my attention? or is it because the way you treat me?
i really just want me and you to be...hmm idk.... i want to be able to talk to you like were friends, and im not scared to talk to you about somethings because of the way you react i dont open up to you. if your really falling in love with me then think of more than just YOU think of ME too! You say you want us to be ONE well we cant be ONE if your only thinking of yourself, so if you want it to be a YOU&ME then were going to have to become friends and not just you telling me what i need to do and you talking to me like im your child, because im not. . . also stop thinking im cheating, were not together. and dont be so attatched because i love my space! dont suffocate me because thats when i dont want to talk to you or be around. so it could me YOU & ME or it could be YOU alone - ♥ drakes jerk!

DREAMS

DREAMS !
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My dreams are to become successful.
A lawyer - an independent women, me not depending on anyone but God. My love right now is my future. Im depending on Me,Myself and I nd God. No one can predict my future but me.
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Im not going to let anyone hold me back from my own dreams. Because in the end I would be wondering why I didnt do things differently.
Right now im saying, there's only so much I can do . But then I could always do more. There is always something more you can do. I choose to live my life how I want it. Which now, I am saying that whatever I choose to do now, is going to end up in my future.

So now I am saying its time for me to buckle down and get serious! No more playing. The begingin of my future starts now ! =)

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~mrsx.graham